Friendship, are they real???

Have you ever heard this quote ;
"I got your back"
Well, from my opinion, or more accurately my observation, that is one hell of a bullshit dude! There is no way u can rely on somebody to help you when you were just went through some serious shit. Usually, when there's a person who helped you through rough times, they were usually sympathetical. They don't understand you, yet, when u said something, the answers they would probably gave you is "I understood". Usually people helps you when they need something. But then again, there are people who helped you for real and doesn't wish for something in return. What they want is for u to return the favor and do the same towards them. That is what we call a genuine friendship, which is very rare nowadays.

Huh...I guess thats the only thing that I wanted to blab about this time...(wow, I've just realised that I didn't write some bullcrap in my blog for so long...huh)

P/S : Nervous about PSPM...which is 2 weeks from now...

1 + 1 = Crowd....

Partying every night in my room since my room has a newcomer....wow...this newcomer comes like 3 in 1 instant coffee..Si amir nie datang tdo...then berduyun2 dtg tido skali...hahah...tiap2 malam berdota...si amir nie da makin gle dota...everytime die men like there is no tomorrow...

Our routine : Berbuka puase .... tdo..... pkul 11 bgun.... men dota..... sahur at 5....tdo...bgun pkul 7...kene kejut si amir pkul 7.15 which in turns will lead to further "kejut-an" at 7.30....then off to classes at 8.00...balik pkul 5...tdo....berbuka....and the same routine continues...

x kesah ar...as long as I didnt get lonely in my shithole i called a room...then its fine...


wah...xleh study siot sejak kebelakangan nie...aduyai...

Uhhhh...hurm...

Allowance = check :D
Family = check
Friends = check...urm....not quite sure though...
Progress in KMS = de-progressed :P
Emotion = OH SHIT!!!!!!!.....i dunno how i should felt actually!!!!the distance maimed my life!!!!and I felt that there was this "hamba Allah" that suck something away from me...(he/she) is like a fucking black hole....(HE/SHE) DENSE AND (HE/SHE) SUCKS!!!!!



Verdict = I guess I'm in a pretty good shape right now...


P/S: Today, there was this girl which went hysterical in the lecture hall..poor she...luckily I didn't see anything that can cause any more trouble...

Plot of the month (of my college life)

-met new friends

-met some cool friends...(yang satu pale ngan aku)

-duit kuar mcm air....kejap2 abes...RM50 bleh dihabiskan dlm 3 hari???WTF???boros gle aku nie...dok kat penghujung dunia plak...bknnyer aku gi outing pown...x penah outing lagi so far...

-some lecture adalah sgt membosankan....some are pretty cool i guess....

-lepak gak ngan mmbr lame...tp da x slalu lepak sgt...waktu lapang pown x intersect sgt...so,sume mcm bt hal masing2...tp still lepak gak petang2 kekadang,..

-BATUK!!!!(fucking pnyer penyakit....bak kate member aku sorang nie,FUCKERABLE!)

-ari nie ade chopper landing kat dataran kosmik...wah...sumenyer apa lagi, MENCAPUB dkat ngan copper tu la...xleh blah..(me included..LOL)...len kali aku upload la photo tu...huhuhu...ntah ape function chopper tu landing kat sini pown aku xtau ar...

-td,dari pkul 9-11 camtu,lepak ngan mmbr aku yg sorang nie...kat tgh2 padang kosmik...bercerita mcm2 ar....xleh blah...bleh kate suara kitorang dominate dataran tu...huhuhu...

-so,skang nie online,update blog,setelah sekian lame x update blog.....~.~
....and still batuk2 lagi...batuk kering ke ape aku nie....>.<

-harap2 plan nak gi outing mggu nie jadik...kalau x jadik,abes la KO aku kat sini mati kebuluran...fulus sudah tiada...koyak poket la wei!!!

Matrix Life!!~

Okay...da agak lame aku x update blog aku....skang kat matriks... :D

Kehidupan kat sini agak seronok...but living in the fast lane la..sume bende nak cpat jer...so,agak ssh ckit ar...tp mmbr2 kat sini sume okay ajer...uish...agak panas gak tinggal kat sini..cuaca die x leh blah...da la banyak lalat..pagi2 plak ade je bau yg menusuk kalbu...bau baja taik lembu kat ladang kelapa sawit...>.<
hurm...kat sini,die block facebook smpi pkul 5...>.<
xbestnyer...T_T

aku nak je upload photo...tp x leh nak upload kat sini lagi...pc die agak hampeh ckit ar...

till then...

XOXO

hurm....happy + sad + lonely + guilty = whattt???????

Happy

Reason : I'm not single anymore...I can count on some1...

Sad

Reason : Feel bad for a friend...Being so insensitive about it...I am too far from my special some1...

Lonely

Reason : I felt this way because...argh...need to mention it again...I am so far from my love...duh!~

Guilty

Reason : I felt this way about my past...hurm...luckily it starting to fade away...but, I also felt this way because I am so insensitive about my friend's situation...

Verdict : I am smart!!!LOL..totally random...hahahaha

Finally aku check out from resort kat bk6...for EVER!

lol...akhirnyer, parents si amir nie da balik...so, aku pown da nek malas plak dok umah orang lame2...hurm...that's pretty much of my story today...TTYL!~

Guy's Night Out!!~ Thank you so much guys...U guys really made my day...And it made me feel better..

nie sume gambar time kitorang gi Pavillion di Kuala Lumpur...nak gi tgk wayang jer..sume nak pki stylo mylo jer...mcm org kayo...padahal sume tgh kering...nak dijadikan citer....agak best gak ar kuar malam2 ngan mmbr gi KL...

Kenangan manis di KL (ade sesetengahnyer R-rated ckit ar) :

1. Time kitorang jalan2 di BB, ade la sorang laki nie...die tnye aku...bleh speaking x..so aku ckp je ar bleh...(tgh speak ar nie)...then...die tnye plak bleh ckp bahase melayu...(muka aku nie x macam melayu ke????)...then...straight to the point ar senang cite...die tu bapak ayam...die nak jual hooker ar tu... = =" .....but no thank you...kitorang nie budak2 baik...lol
2. Kene halau dari Pavillion sbb da nak tutup pintu...time tu kitorang sume menyanyi2@lepak2 kat baskin robbin.....
3. Si Safiq nie plak lagi bagus...time nak gerak kate duit ade ckit jer...tgk2 die la yg paling kayo kat situ..aiseyman...kantoi time die nak beli mineral kat 7E...
4. SO, kitorang tgk cite The Losers...kalau tgk tajuk ngan cite die..mcm x padan...but it's one of my favourite action movie..with a small dose of humour...
5. Kitorang gi bergambar ngan kete2 org2 kaye dari Singapore...wah..kete sume stock lamborghini jer....kalau nak beli kete tu...mmg x makan smpi tua ar cite nyer...die pnyer road tax ngan insurance je pown da macam harga downpayment banglo yg besar2 gle...

So...lepas tgk wayang tu...kitorang sume pown beredar ar....yg x leh blah..time baru masuk Pavillion, si Safiq nie bgus gle..aku suruh parking bawah lagi..die kate bwh penuh...wah...mmg "penuh"...ramai gle kete kat situ...hahhahaha....lol..time balik...kosong gle kat tingkat tu...time balik...amek mase 15 min jer...time gi...amek mase dlm 45 min...

and btw, thx so much guys..u guys really made my day...(or night, in this case)...it's such a wonderful time hanging out with u guys...

Leona Lewis - I Got You (Official Music Video)

Malam semalam aku terlalu depressed sesangat smpi aku terfikir untuk buat bende2 yg bodo...aku da x fikir pasal orang laen...aku terlalu fikir masalah aku smpi aku terlupa prinsip utama aku dlm idop nie...dunia x berputar kat sekeliling aku...nasib baek la aku ade kawan yg btol2 aku bleh percaya....thx mate...aku x tau ar ape akan jadi kat aku kalau aku xder kawan mcm ko...aku nie da la ssh gle nak percaya kat orang...cume ko sorang je yg aku bleh percaya...aku bersyukur btol dpt kawan yg mmg bleh dipercayai...ntah kenapa aku bleh jadi camnie pown aku xtau...sejak2 akhir2 nie..sume rase bersalah aku menghantui balik diri aku...smlm aku terlalu bersedih smpi kesakitan fizikal x terasa langsung..literally...aku terlalu bodoh...smpi aku kelar tgn aku sendiri...(tapi xder la aku kelar kat bhgn yg penting...aku tau anatomy manusia...aku cume kelar bahagian kapilari darah)...still..ianya ttp bodoh...walaupun smlm darah dari tgn aku menitik2,mengalir keluar...tp, aku xder rase sakit...(wow, aku impervious smlm terhadap kesakitan fizikal)...n then, mak aku nampak...mak aku tegur...aku ckp kat die, kepala da terlalu sakit...nak distract dari sakit kepala yg terlalu sgt, aku cut tgn aku sendiri...walaupon smlm mmg kepala aku sakit sesangat(scale 1~10, rase sakit kepala aku smlm mencecah 9.5),tp bkn tu sbb utama aku bt camtu...mak aku suruh aku cerita masalah kat die...tp aku rase aku x leh...sbb aku ade trust issue...keluarga sendiri pown aku xleh nak percaya da...btol la ckp beyonce dlm video clip telephone..."you know GaGa, trust is like a mirror..you can't fix it if it's broke"...

sekali dilihat...mcm drama plak idop aku nie...sentiasa dibelenggu rase bersalah, masalah...

sekali lagi aku ingin berterima kasih kepada sahabatku yg mmg menyedarkan aku dan paham akan situasi aku...aku terhutang budi kat ko...n aku rase, probably nyawa pown aku berhutang...aku xtau ar mcm mane nak balas budi baek ko nie...oleh kerana aku da mula percaya ko,aku harap ko x rosakkannyer...sbb kalau ko buat gitu...aku xtau mcm mane aku nak handle...

aku dedicate lagu nie kat ko sahabatku...pergh...bunyi mcm gay jer...zzzz...oleh kerana blog nie je tmpt yg bleh kuluah rase hati tnpa rase awkward...so aku post je ape yg aku rase...

Can't Sleep...Have too much to think about...

April 21 -- 05:40 a.m

I can't sleep...Just woke up from a sleep...which I honestly think that tido aku mcm x tdo jer...rase berat hati...rase mcm nak gila pown ade gak...hurm....xtau la nak bt ape...sakit gak hati ble difikirkan psl si dia...tp...mcm aku ckp sblum nie..the world does not revolves around me...I don't know what feeling is this...knape la aku x ckup kuat eventhough da mcm2 dugaan aku tempuhi sblum nie...???kenapa???

hurm...rase terabai je aku nie...xpe la..nak buat mcm mane...aku nie mmg favourite object untuk diabaikan...slalu je diabaikan...senang dilupakan...org len bkn igt aku sgt...aku pown da x tau ape lagi yg ade kat dunia nie yg bleh ceriakan aku balik and buat aku nyer dunia seperti sedia kala...korang sume mmg nmpk aku slalu happy je dari luar...tp dari dlm xder sorang pown tau...mgkn salah aku gak kowt...sbb susah sgt nak open kat org...aku da ilang percaya kat sume orang...xder sorang pown dlm family aku yg aku btol2 percaya untuk luahkan ape2...adek beradek je ramai...tp sume aku x caye...ntah nape la idop aku nie malang sgt...semakin hari,aku rase aku nie makin losing my grip...and i felt like that tiny essence of my humanity is evaporating into the thin air...patut ke aku buat bodo je????

aku da makin ilang minat kat sume bende da...matrik da nak masuk...tp rasenyer x leh focus...n guess what??

that voice....yg dulu aku asyik dgr di saat aku ssh hati da datang balik...argh!!!!

hurm....

hurm...sampai situ je ar coretan aku untuk arini...

Why did I felt this way????

Aku rase mcm aku nie dipergunakan...rase susah hati...rase mcm diketepikan...aku xtau nape nasib aku mcm nie...setiap kali something that looks good from the outside is in my grasp,it slipped away easily,right before I have the chance to open it...Im torn apart by this feeling...rase mcm aku da kehilangan the most important part of my life...nape aku perlu rase mcm nie???

Aku nie x ckup bgus ke????apsal everyone has to treat me this way????kenapa???????

Aku tau nie sume dugaan...tp dugaan sebegini lebih perit dari kesakitan fizikal yg ade dlm dunia nie...who am I to say these kind of shit???WELL I CAN BECAUSE I'VE EXPERIENCED IT IN MY LIFE!!!

When I really need someone to lean on....dia xder!!!!

Tapi ble die need someone to lean on..."my shoulder is all yours"

May I say that dunia nie x adil...NO I MAY NOT...orang laen pown ade masalah...dunia nie x berpusing di sekeliling aku....

I felt like I've been jabbed by a rambo knife..and ade orang merobek jantungku semahu-mahunye...ape yg aku bleh buat????rasa mcm da give up dgn hidup...tp aku still nak hidup...

Demam + Selsema + Sleepover = Disaster...

Dear blog,

I've just recovered from my fever (probably caused by the lady I saw in the woods with a blue scarf, it's kinda creepy)
But, I still didn't recover from my runny nose...Damn..rasa macam budak hingusan...
As u guys might know, Amir Faeiz is having a sleepover and he invited me and Safiq;
Here are the exact dialogue when he invited me

Amir Faeiz : Alan, mggu dpan parents aku gi umrah...2 minggu die gi sane...nak lepak tdo umah aku x?
Me : Nak buat ape???
Amir Faeiz : Ala...lepak2 ar jom..bosan ar...aku dok umah sorang je ngan adik aku n nenek aku...
Me : Sape lagi lepak????
Amir Faeiz :Ko try ajak Safiq ar...ajak Hadif sekali...
Me :Ko ar ajak die...ko yg nak ajak kitorang lepak umah ko...*pandang slek je kat die*
Amir Faeiz : Wei...aku xder krdt ar...aku topup RM10 je minggu nie...Ko pakai youthclub...safiq da r pakai celcom...
Me : Asyik2 gune alasan same...
Amir Faeiz : Ko ngan aku pon nak berkira...aku da ar slalu belanja ko...
Me : Ye ar..Ye ar...zzz..nak mengungkit...
Amir Faeiz :*die buat muka*

***Sms Safiq,Hadif...Hadif x sure...Safiq confirm***

Me :Aku x sure lagi ar...tgk ar dlu camne...
Amir Faeiz : Wei..please ar dtg...bosan ar...xder org kowt..
Me : Aku x leh janji ar...mane ar tau ade hal ke...
Amir Faeiz : Please ar...

***and the conversation went on and on and on...***
***OK...mgkn nie bkn THE EXACT DIALOGUE..tp its more than 70% accurate***

So, at this exact moment, aku tgh tulis blog, dgr lagu...maybe mlm nnti kitorang x tdo kowt..maybe we all going to watch DVD until our eyes sore like we have a constipation problem..

Till then,
XOXO

Adventure of A Sleepy Boy : Mountain Climbing

Huh...my title sounds like a prequel movie...~.~

Last Thursday,I've slept for 2 hours...and last night,I've slept for only 1 ½ hours...damn I'm crazy..considering that I have to go climb some shit mountain of some sort...sounds adventurous???U bet...

This morning, I woke up around 7.50 a.m...*notice that I kunci my alarm in my phone which was suppose to ring at 6.30 a.m*

I slept like a cow???If you've had guessed that, you would've been correct...YES!!!I tidur mampos!!!like, totally KO!!!

So,that morning, my sister was suppose to pick me up at Amir's at 7.00 a.m...but I guessed she joined the club too...*if u didn't get what I am trying to say here,knock your head to the wall till u see strawberry juice squirting from your ears/eyes/forehead...FREE JUICE*
Owh...I didn't mention this...I slept at Amir's house last night...helping his family with some stuff for the kenduri doa selamat which his parent anjurkan pada xx/xx/2010...

So,to summarize the story, she was late...she picked me up at 7.50 a.m. --- which is the real reason I woke up at that specific time...
She called me....she called me...she called me....see this sentences???multiply it by 5...akhirnya aku bangun jugak...because that ringtone keeps bugging me...OK...so I have to rush because we planned to go to that place(Bukit Takun) at 8.30 a.m...Since I am sleepy, I've drank Livita and Redbull...---sugar rush for about an hour or so----

So, with my air liur basi still on my cheeks(its just an expression...its not actually there..LOL), we departed from our home to that place...

Blah...blah..blah...yadda...yadda...yadda...
-- we have to redah that hutan first...then we reach the top of the hill...posing2 for some pics...then we climb that batu kapur thingy...

And...did I mention that I saw a ghost????It's just a glimpse of it...or her...or whatever...


Ok...da malas nak tulis panjang2 sgt...
So,here are some pictures !!!!
*P.S:Gambar2 yg diambil time kitorang tgh panjat batu kapur tu sblum kitorang nak gi panjat tmpt tggi2...ble da pki tali2 sume tu untuk rock climbing,kitorang da stop posing for the camera...*

Today Was A Fairytale...NOT!!!!!!

Last night, I slept for 2 hours only...2 HOURS!!I slept from 4 a.m to 6 a.m...then, my sister and bro woke me up..darn...they kicked me >.<...they told me they were late for school...so, me, as usual, with my muka basi; sent them to their school...what a good way to kick start my "wonderful" morning..

Okay, the real reason I woke up so early because we had a plan to go out...(when I said we, what I meant is my friends and I)...
Venue : It's secret..let's just say that the place's name start with the letter K.....

So, we went to K at 12.00 p.m this afternoon...jalan plak jam....aduyai...so, with that sluggish motion of my friend's car, we finally reached that place around 1 p.m...(my other friend already waited for us for about an hour...damn I am a terrible friend)...

Skip to the highlight of the day --- we arrived at the mall we wanted to go...wanted to watch a movie, but can't because we had to get back to fetch someone around 4 p.m...so,we just jalan2 cari makan...literally we cari makan...so,we ate at the food court...before that,here's a funny story...my friend suggested that we should eat at Sakae Sushi...

The story starts here...I am not sure that the food they served there are halal...so, we asked the waiteress...but that waiter doesn't seems to understand what we were trying to say...so..bla...bla..bla..my friend cuak already because he ate at that restaurant before and his friend told him that it was halal...but there wasn't a "Halal" logo there...so, that clueless waiteress call her manager...and the manager told us that the food they served are halal...but we still in doubt though...so, we just browsing through the menu...and we all said the same thing..."this looks good","this one looks delicious","rase meleleh plak air liur"...and after all that "sweet talk", WE WALKED AWAY LIKE THERE WAS NOTHING HAPPENED THERE!!!!
That waiteress look at us, ANNOYED...LOL...

So, after that, nothing interesting happen...it was like any other day...we pusing2 seluruh tempat...got tired...slept in the car...and voila ~~~ sprained my neck...so...today was definitely not a fairytale...

till then,
XOXO

When I say that "your timing is impeccable",what I actually meant was,"your timing blows"

Ok..My first day blogging...I have to complaint about my uncle...Man he was generous...he offered me a trip to Albania for a whole month as a present for my academic achievement bla bla bla...but, there's a hiccup...the trip starts from 29 April...Owh man...he's "very good" with planning...when I was busy about getting into matriculation/UPU,etc...he plans to go on a vacation...And I said to myself, "Should I go???Man, its once in a lifetime chance...but why now?????why didn't he asked me last month??Or last year???OMG...MY VACATION LAST FOR A MONTH!!!!What should I do during that time???With no friends,and he busy; working during the first week of the vacation...so I, reluctantly, rejected that offer...damn...Albania is in my list of "things to do before I get married or die"...

So, since I didn't go to that country, I've decided to bring that country to me(if that even possible)...

Here is the great places that I missed...